I've been mostly in bed, except for a couple of nicotine breaks, a shower, and a light meal of pear halves, since 3 a.m. Wednesday morning. |Z (eyes closed and snoring)
I suspect there's some procrastination paralysis involved, but I can't think of anything I'm NOT looking forward to facing. hmm.

I think I've gotten jaded over the years living as a "poor colllege student" - I hate the commercialism of the holidays, and think it can blind us to the original intent of setting aside the day in the first place..

Let us remember all the universe, and not just the parts we love, and be in awe at the miracle of life and forgiveness. (That's not Exactly the reason for this holiday, but might be a shadow of it..)

I am a little fearful. I'm scheduled to make the 1313 coffee tonight, but don't want to get caught in the rain, walking to and from the bus stop, waiting for the church to open.

Anyone in South Austin up for playing taxi? I'll bite the bit at 4, and head out, if no one responds before then..

"Playing it by ear" - slang from music, perhaps, referring to making music without a written score or lyrics to go by?
...another way of saying that one is improvising a situation, or scheduling, without using a predetermined plan...
...a little frustrated right now.

"Anonymous Assessment" instructions (16 Dec 2010)

The "Anonymous Assessment".. send me a face-mail with a number from 1 to 10000, and I will, after some profile digging and such, post my impressions of you from RL and here as my status update. I will also try to keep my Virgo super-critical side locked in the closet when I do so, i.e. try to be positive.

Weaving a web of words, all while mind wanders along wayward corridors with some weariness, more whimsy, and... wonders await?

(Jody)'s mind's in a bit of turmoil right now...
"Self-pity gone wild, feeling like an outsider, and wondering about finding new pursuits. I think I'm focusing on differences again, and the void of contact in my life."

(Jody) doesn't feel like doing the Thanksgiving potlucks this year, but suspects that's what's going to happen. *SIGH*

I sit atop a hill, yearning to be on a mountain top, but afraid of trudging through the valley between the two.

I did something today, that I used to do, 3 years ago..
I journaled about the Daily Reflection. It was interesting to see the words flow, my thoughts outlined more coherently than some of my meeting shares.
I think I might try a week of it..
Oh, you're saying, "It's not in your notes.."? My apologies, but I do still believe in pen and paper. If you'd like to read it, ask me in RL some time..

"Awake and Chirping"

3 AM and the cricket's are chirping outside,
And here I am, how to while time, I must decide...
Computer? Sleep? ..on a caffeine wave, I do ride.

"Texas Thunder"

Ah..!

The rumble of thunder,
The sweet smell of a summer rain -
All I have to wonder
Is, "Will there be some flooding 'gain?"

Seeking middle ground...

FOR ME, the best state to be in is "quiet serenity".

I have to be aware that, left to their own devices, both MY elation and MY depression can spin out to dangerous extremes.

Unfortunately, that elusive elation is something I crave, for its gifts of creativity and boosts to confidence, but I forget that it can also bring some pretty flawed thinking, too...

*SIGH*

"Morning Procrastination"

Awake to the morning sun,
Not too much needs to be done.

So, I sit in front of this machine,
Drinking deep the gallon of caffeine..

"Plays with yarn"

What, oh what, will my status be this morn? Will sleep come to me, on angels' wings born? Perhaps they, of Iceland ash, I need warn... I wonder if I'll keep on rhyming - "Darn!" At least, I'm not shooting at the broad side of a barn. (OK, I'll stop, now, this silly little yarn...)

shower. eat. movie? meeting(s)... and a late night clearing app crap...? ...that's my current plans for the day.

collected updates, newest to oldest, for 14 Jan 2010

finally saw the bird that has decided to nest in the roof of our front porch - looks kind of like a yellow warbler or something. "At least it's not a grackle.."

Rain falls in Austin at 5 a.m... one of the "secrets" you learn working graveyard shifts?

Happy Day! Caloo, Calay! Back down to zip for app invites, today...

1679616. So what if it was a starred problem...

New Year's Note 2010 (rev: 16 Jan 21)

5:09 AM 01/01/10...
(...in ten days that'll be a palindromic date?)


If you believe astrology -
I begrudgingly give it a closet in my head -
Saturn is moving out of my sign, so this last year of uncomfortable boundaries and limitations is passing, and 'opportunities abounding await'.


"I don't know, I just hope 2010 brings peace and stability...
That, and that Jupiter doesn't get swallowed by black monoliths... 🙂 "

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