...and then...
I begin to think I can control an addiction, as I extend the time since I last engaged in it. That's the danger of being a binger instead of a daily user...
Or, in the absence of "typical" appeals to a HP, such as prayer, I begin to think I've beat it on my human power alone.
It's hard to remind myself, though, that I DID (and still do) depend on Groups, Sponsorship, and Step work, at least, with the alcohol addiction...
But, am I bodily and mentally different from my fellows? Considering most of them are alcoholics too, it's hard to say - except there IS that whole other wrinkle of my bipolar brain..