I feel - some times a dangerous way to start a status update - disconnected from and unappreciated by some - not ALL - of my acquaintances.
I just have to wonder... Am I unapproachable? Do I smell bad? Do these people think I have nothing to offer?
Probably just feeding my resentment(s).
...part of me just wants to act out, and attempt a retreat in December - no meetings, no Facebook, no outgoing phone calls... Just work and home. I wonder how long it would take before anyone would "send out the search party"...
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Sooo... That's where my brain is trying to take me right now: "feeling alone in a room of crowded people"

A little mind-bug:
"Why do I expect you to invite me into your life, when I don't seem to be making any effort to invite you into mine?"

When Formula One Came to Austin

So, I'm thinking about our culture's infatuation with watching sports - whether it be team sports like football, basketball, and baseball; or more individual sports like golf, tennis, running, and auto racing. Part of the reason I'm thinking about it is because Austin is opening up a race track this weekend.
Honestly, I've never seen much appeal in watching others engage in physical activity - it just doesn't seem to matter much in the grand scheme of things, or in enhancing my personal enlightenment.
I'd rather be an active participant. Even there, though, I have to be aware of my limitations; and I'd rather be in a sport or exercise that has some secondary goals or maybe even healthy competition integrated into it. Example: I prefer to walk and bike to places, rather than drive... I prefer playing volleyball over playing football...
Mind's still sleepy, and I'm not sure where I'm going...
I guess I just don't feel invested in professional sports.
In a similar vein, I feel only slightly more investment in non-local artists, probably because I haven't had the opportunity to get to know them as fellow humans. However, some times art *DOES* change me, even when I'm just the spectator, and it is for those artists that I am grateful, as they have usually changed me for the better, or, at least, broadened my horizons.
Going to tag Troy Dillinger, 'cause his conversations here, this morning, got me thinking about this.