Grief or Amends? (7 May 2021)

 Am I trying to figure out how to overcome rejection,

How to win back angry friends,

...how to make amends...?

Or am I trying to process grief?

To let go of past relationships,

When one of us decided,

"We could no longer help each other?"

...and yet, I honestly believe that

"Everyone has value", and

"No one should be written off as unworthy of love";

But, I have finite time and resources - two hands, if you will

and I am saddened by standing outside the campfire

and I am reminded of our impermanence

and fading memories are little deaths

so much invested -

now? stories

Lost.

...and then there's the second thought:

"Why am I gnashing my teeth on Facebook,

When that forum seems so broken, these days?"

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Generalization, but it applies to multiple communities:

"We used to do so many activities together,

So why do we do nothing, now?"

(Which has a bit more sting,

when I'm considering a whole group of people,

instead of just one member in it,

with whom I might not have agreed 100% with...)