3 July 2019

 If I open my mouth, what half-truths will emerge? ...and will food be offered, to close it?

I spent a good portion of today by fighting feelings of insignificance. I'm in that space, right now. I'm afraid what would happen if that meager beacon of hope that keeps me striving - if that were to be extinguished?

i wonder if my irrational brain might take over one day, and push me into foolish actions...

I imagine people pushing all sorts of advice on me, both in the past and in the present; and I still feel like I'm drowning in all the actions i can take.

i feel like time is up - run out - exhausted...