23 August 2020

 The desire to call out hasn't reached critical mass, yet... For that matter, the desire to write a Facebook post feels rather forced, too.

I'm still trying to wrap my head around over-sharing. I'm still using a paragraph with three supporting sentences, for comparing. ...do I break the pattern, to make a new paragraph, now?

but of course.. "Screw standardizations, if it can hammer home a point!"

I can see how a simple, direct statement has a bit more "umph" than a big long chain of clauses and conditons. I can see it... but my math mind, my science mind - they want those clauses and conditions to prevent you from jumping to erroneous conclusions:

"explain the possibilities away before they were considered."

...and I'm trying to delve deep, and think why the explanations need to be so simple. why the sharing should be in short bursts?

Honestly? I suspect information gets lost, especially when it's only heard, and so adding all those clauses and conditions makes it harder to stay on top of the conversation...

oh, aside here... I forgot my bipolar brain, when it's gone manic, again. it's horrible how much memory i'm trying to dump. I've sat and jotted down notes of triggered thoughts, while other people were sharing - just to keep those thoughts from being overbearing.

If you don't let me go off on the tangents, then I'll get lost in them. I suspect this is why I much prefer reading and writing to speaking and listening. Having my voice sounding the words in my head, and reading them with my eyes, at a leisurely pace - with a chance to rewind when confused... yeah, it's much easier to remember a lot more information.

Now.... having talked about my speech - what about all of yours? If I go over-explaining, do I lose you? Do I leave no opportunities left to contribute to our conversation? Do I basically dump a load on you, so that I'm empty-handed but you're carrying double the weight?

I know this is a long post, now. I'm sure someone could turn it into a short, sweet meme... Yet, I think we have a bit of a conversation crisis - with so many channels, so much information - everyone;s trying to speak, and who then is left to listen?

Do we muffle straight, middle-aged, white males like myself - simply because they've been the dominant speakers, forever!? Actually, yes, and I DO try to keep my verbal comments low...

but who's reading the Facebook feed? who's watching all the channels of TV? Have we hit the multiplication point so that there's too much diversity of opinion out there? How did fake news become such a phenomenon, anyway? Is it just a strange by-product of well-delivered irony and sarcasm? After all, I think good irony can be tough to detect by its particular targets...

My brain spins about conversation - it has since high school. I want to make better sense out of it... I want to have a variety of styles at my fingertips.

Yet, honestly? I think I've lost most of my audience. And so, there's a little more mass put on the desire to call out... There's a little more sadness, because I feel alone and unappreciated, far too often. (I'm only feeding that, by writing so many essays - because I don't know when they will be read, and by who.)

Plus, "Facebook IS a scrapbook" - a dumping ground for memes.... Here, long essays often die quick deaths.